Hardly 16 hours before i get on a train to go back am so excited, its gonna be so cool... finally am going back , but i dunno also am double minded as well, why have no clue.

The past couple of weeks have just had some amazing highs and lows, with the Karachi INduction on the roll, and the OC NYDS just going all guns blazing some sweet memories are what i am taking back from here... Some real hot chicks have been recruited :P thanks to OC recruitment and VP PD, seems like next yera of LC Karachi is gonna be fun....

Well interns are leaving, Sukriye has left as well Wangari left yesterday. The last night with all of the interns was a nice one for the first time went to the park near us and woo, it was so cool, just look at the picture thats one big happy family of ours....

So now its all done last day in office before eid, for thoise who know what i am embarking on , plz pray that it comes through, am so confused abt what my next stepshould be from here, just wanna cuddle in and go to sleep and forget abt all this....

Weekend yay!!!!

A real sexy week ,

Twenty20 world cup is going strong and Pakistani team is hot , today in the evening they play in teh semi finals with NewZealand, wooo reminds me off teh 1992 and 1999 smi finals both times it was the Kiwi team that Pakistan beat to enter the finals.
WOW this week Pakistan was just awesome beating Srilanka and then next night beating the Kangroos, just awesome work.

Now on the other end of teh world in my office life has been so bloody fast tht seems like months have passed by but where in reality it has been 5 days, 5 days of hardcore trading shit alongwith my bestfriend getting to see eachother get bastofied.
Strangely what i was expecting this week to be it has turned out pretty good, finally am understanding the models and getting used to an independent life, its kinda strange to go back to an empty house and then just chilling out in front of the TV, thought would go insane in a life like that but have come to terms with it....

Well the best thing in the morning happened, got to the office after a liesurely stroll from my place, and opened up to see a mail from one of the closest riends containing the pictures from the last night we had together in karachi before she left. (inset: Wajiha, Ahmed)

The day seems like is gonna go all guns blazing now, the mail reminds me of some really sweet memories with these two people but also a realization of how cruel life and turn of events can be, but still NYDS baby u r coming the other one AHmed is gonna be there for sure s he is my boss :P

Right now am trying to figure out what new is lying in store for me in the days ahead, btw my room is almost completely set now and yayyyy house warming party coming up soon.............

Last night in Wah Cantt the most pathetic one i could have had, it was all going perfect till one call screwed it all up left the shithole twin city in ahurry after that and dont even want to look back anymore,

Now as per the schedule of the now hairy nawaz sharif coming to pakistan it all scewed up my plans and was plunged into a logistical crisis, with Islamabad airport getting sealed off, had to get atrain, and on such ashort notice naturally got the shittiest one in teh economy class, The train ride was eventful i would say, the giant rammed into a biker and killed him, well not worth metioning but tht was the only thing in the whole ride which took my mind off the painfully long journey, and then baji's legendary dumbness goes on, wen i told her that this has happened she was like "dekh kar ana" abay yar i wasnt driving it mai kia karaoon :)

Anyways i think i am lcky to be able to get to karachi only three and ahalf hour late and in one piece.,,,, had the chillest day in office as no trading and nothing to do and Biryani thanks to the new I.T. guy, it felt good.

Finally my room looks like a decent room, with my cupboard, in place and my clothes in it now just need to get the curtains right and its all done, wow people should be proud of me after looking at my room....

two warriors

just skimming through my computer found this the two warrior friends of mine, bila and hussain........ this photograph was taken on 15th July the last day all of us were together, now next wud be inshallah the convocation in December.....

Bye Bye Islamabad......

Sad Sad day, my last visit to islamabad for a few months, it went by so fast dun even rememebr what happened in detail the major highlights...

The days started off on a very desperate search in the china market in pindi for my cupboard, which i finally got, am too lazy an ass to look for one in karachi and would be taking it from here din want to search around in the shitty city....

1430 hrs, started driving towards islamabad and as i was getting bored as the Fm channel sucked big time so decided on breaking law and talking on phone with the best friend i have,, well now to think of it she might have been busy but she is too sweet to tell me to buzz off and i practically ate her mind for the next twenty minutes of ma drive.

AAAAaaaa then came the swet parts spent time wid batool and madiha, in their office practically talking abt complete crap but it was a nice feeling just sitting there and talking reminds me off good ol times from university i miss em like anything, (inset: batool madiha and the useless friend of mine mahvash ) anyways it was nice catching up on em......

One of teh best evenings i had in along long time, went to Cileia's office and we drove all the way up to Daman-e-Koh, a very short stay there but a nice one, had pakoras and a pretty concerned decsion abt the state of AIESEC affairs in Islamabad, i honestly think she is teh best think that could have happened to AIESEC in Islamabad (obviously the best after me :)).....

Just got back from Islamabad after a silent long drive i dun wanna leave this city again... but as it is inevitable, tomorrow my defense and then i am gone.. am seriously contemplating moving back as soon as i get a decent job here..
Waiting to see what life holds in for me.................

past month............

Ok guys its been over a month that i have been totally lost from the eworld, not my fault blame it all on my new life.....

Now RECAP,

thir week of July,------------ Ended up in karachi for an interview with no idea on what to do, and what the city holds for me, started work in a really sexy office, living in th MC house ooo my god just awesome,
The house is justa wesome, and i mean it with more than 10 people and the same amount of nationalities it was just great.

August-------- MC leaves for IC and am there with all the interns, and then the sudden realizations started happening, interns started coming in left right and centre, back to back pickups, long rides to airport at night to pick people we have never known, but would be spending our next few months of life with, isnt it awesom..

Let me introduce u to my family in karachi...

Nida Rasheed---- MCP AIESEC in Pakistan, one of my inspirations for sticking with this lame organization as i initially thought, she has taught me what one can do in life at an early age,

Sohaib Ather, Taha Durrani --------- the two MCVPs and the roomies, who have the best sense of humour pretty contrasting to each other but just teh best people you can have in life to be friends with

Klepo, Yao----- the people in the other room , a bunch of craziness when i met them for the first time but O MY God they r so cooll.

Wangrai Wanjau, Marina Ran----- aaaa the two sexy girls in the house, Wangari treating us like babies and being our mama, and Marina well the useless person around :P but with cotton candy hair which Nida refused to switch with and now she is not here in pakistan anymore.

Then teh intern house people, Kurt, Seto, Ben, Franki, Micheal, Zafirah, Sukriye... people i cant even imagine my life without in karachi.......

Cileia Rufino------- Ok now she is a pretty important girl unfortunately not as i expected it to be but she is still ISlamabad's fist ever INTERN, just imagine AIESEC in Islamabad, getting their first realization exactly 35 days from becoming an official extension, awesome na. Now about her a former MC from Switzerland where i always thought every girl; was a white hot chick.... but na its all a myth. Working with Mobilink she is a key player for the future of AIESEC in Islamabad with her immense expereince, and hate to agree it but still she is quite lovable...

OK after strenous days in Karachi finally got break to rush back to islamabad to get my university stuff cleared out...... and the past three days have been just a whirlwind thing days have past by in university then meeting random people in MOBILINK, ;) and then home stuff, there is sop much to catch on in family things.

Soon as i get back to karachi wud be uploading pictures from the past month, but to cut the crap short, everything is happening really quickly..........

parhai goes on, the clock is ticking and the time till the doomsday is just hardly 30 hours in future now, why did it have to be like this with the toughest paper going in first like they want to test our defense mechanism and tht too with haroons course, pagal hain salay.

Anyways 8th JUly 2007 my family finally shifted again this is the 4th family station we have moved on to in the past 18 months, seems like we have been shifting all along the way, 18 momths beena roller coster ride for everyone aab i am praying bcz this is for achange a station my parents are comfortable with.

But as usual the fourt shifting and the fourth in a row i skipped because of my academic concerns :P for all those who know me inside out they would know how commited i am anyways day started off bad not at all a good one, was shaken to consciousness by a news of one of the people i love being hurt, and then teh normal day passed by studyiong for the shitty bank managemnt course i am stuck in, but still the highlights of day were

1. spending time wid billa (after a lopng time me and him alone;-)
2. realizing the fact that the perosn i love also cares and loves me as well ("breathes out in releif")
3. seriously studyiinga nd bastofying baji as usual for waking upo at 12 and tehn wasting time in searching for parathas i mean cmon yar.....

PLZ PRAY FOR MY PAPERS!!!!!

memories.......

courtesy hussian shahid:

arz kia hai

"Kon kehta hai maut aai gi tau mar jaon ga...
Main tu maulvi abdul aziz hoon burqa mei nikal jaoon ga "

parhai mode....

well with bullets being fired all over the G6 sector sitting on the other side of the city trying to study for thses god damn papers, which i have no clue what and why and dont wanna do, holed up at bilal s place with tension on mind the picture clearlty tells u off the amazing mode of parhai we did, chilled out mainly and that was kinda at it mainly.

anywyas updates on Lal masjid, oo my god just realized faez baby is in the same sector i hope no stray bullet found him there , waisay wo mar bhi jai tu kuch nahi shayd thora duniya pai bojh kam ho jai ga :P anyways listening to news what the hell man they say that we are willing to put down arms but do not term it as surrender, the intelligence reports are saying tht the molana as tehy call him is somewhere in basement and has made a shield of 30 odd people which has women and children in it wat a bloddy sissy and son of a #$#& is he, yar imagine guys the children inside are in the age bracket of 4 onwards man i cant imagine how the parents have the guts to do this lave their children with these nutheads, this picture clearly reflects the state of affairs in islamabad right now (courtesy of THe NEWS)

RUN RUN RUN!!!!!!!!!!

Holy Shit, imagine a person who has been running the show for approx 5000 people in the age bracket of 15-30 for over 6 months and brining them to the brink of a gun battle where they were outnumbered by state, and then trying to escape in a burqa my goodness........

Thats what u call beinga chiocken and atraitor someone who should be hanged in the middle of sadar and then his body cut into 4 pieces and parts sent to each province for public display.

What can one say a standoff of over 48 hours, with gizzilion rounds of ammo fired from both sides, the only thing i can think is run run run... as fast u can away from pindi/isloo..

well on the other side of the city in my personal life teh same thing happening run run run i tried, tripped and fell damn it and that too on stairs, well but one thing proven i have a hard nut(head) to crack hehhehe anyways yar run run run everyone run if not away from the mullahs and ninja turtle force then run run run to get slim (chusss)............

WAR in islamabad

btw for all those who have been asking abt who is this insia aka lali i mention in my blogs well she is the one in the pic wid me, the rest of the people i hang arouund wid are already in other pics.

So now wat the hell is happening in islamabad, 12 people already dead and teh bloddy governement is saying tht the casualties have been 3, watever, the latest is that the government has warned the lal masjid people to drop arms or else a precision operation is gonna take place. Precision my foot 12 casualties in teh heart of the federal capital and still they think they can pull it off the whole place is under a blackout

4000 women in jamia hafsa like i care but jus smoke em out and kill em but why civilian casualties, or just surround it and bloddy bomb em to hell, but no more civilian casualties, what have they done those poor people,

breaking news, injusred reported in PIMS to be 40 now wat do u think are we sitting

in kabul or baghdad.

GOD HELP US, we are all gonna die......................

floood runnnnnn!!!!!!!

uff at this time of night was just goin through ma old data and found some really cool pics nostalgic memories associated wid each and every single one of em they were good days , btw i looked so bloddy hot in those days, damn sexy aun :P

the current crisis the next two days are really critical pindi has been put on high alert storm expected to hit rawalpindi on 4th and the low lying areas around teh Leh have been warned of a possible flood and something on the similar lines of the flood of 2001, keep ur fingers crossed and everyone plz pray tht pindi remains safe bcz last time around it was horrible and wen i say horrible i really mean horrible, many people died in tht and million and millions of worth damage.

anyways abt today wasted time asusual supposed to study but din do anything now am doing it and god help me, would term it as agood day wid a couple of setbacks, talking to deeba and being shocked at a few revelations which i have not noticed in the past few months, then an ignorance factor by ONE of ma loves for a few hours but the conversation was good then, magar the countdown for the papers has started its on, (inse- chikna aun, talha, choti, ammo)

the scene's getting hot!!!!

the scene is hot and humid, rain rain go away come again some other day i wanna study today

watever like i wud ever study but still the countdown has begun papers are seven days ahead and havent studied a single word,

right now deeba as usual have not done her project and is sitting and have no clue wat to do hehhehehe but no issues us ka saga baitha hoa help kara raha hai kar lai gi aaj ki tareekh mai he anywyas garmi bohat he gandi kism ki hoi hoi hai aur hum log khawar hain

stay tuned for more updates.......

memories and tears!!!!!!!

Saturday, wrong beginning and probably not the one i would be proud of, the depression mode is still there,

sitting and getting bitten in the eye by a bloddy flying object and then the swelling and the pain holy shit, not anice sendoff from the uni, not at least one i would like to talk abt ever again, the day has had its high and lows, making surehussain shit is frozen solid with the fact that the deadline is two o clock was jst too good :P(i know i am a@#$%#)

Sitting with HR :P for over two hours talking abt complete crap and scheduling the rishwats was just awesome, but shit all of it is over, damn probably we are never gonna sit together, billa, deeba (aka dips aka huma) haroon sahb.

At this point in time billa is all pissed of at us jus a few mistakes, got rolled over by ONE of ma loves,

Am gonna miss a lot of people just this pic the, hot, hotter, hotter 2, hotter 3 and the hottest aun my goodness these people dun know whts gonna happen, motoo would be there but dun know wht else. pata nahi kia ho ga,

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the drive

the drive back from Hot Spot confessions and apologies, the car had the three loves of my life and myself and although tensions were high not because of any rifts but because of

the fact that this was probably our last night out together :(
The songs we hummed to, no this cant be over at all..... Bila, deeba , lali ... am gonna miss u guys a lot thank you for everything , you guys are the best thing in life anyone can wish to have....... (inset: bilal, deeba)

Its over!!!!!!

Finally the most dreaded moment of my life till date has passed by...(someone really close had told me that it would be over and thank god that is isnt the end of life)

The day, the last class, the farewell, the photo sessions, the late night party with all the people i love in this place just awesome...

But right now am sitting here in front of the screen on the brink of tears and for the first time in life am having difficulty to put my emotions in words... Theres the feeling of joy that it is finally over, also the deep inside crunch that shit i am never gonna be able to wake up and go to a class with the same bunch of people ever, the friends i have made here never gonna be able to spend long hours without doing anything and just talking in the university with no worries of life at all.

My comfort zone wants me to leave now and No i dun wanna do tht at all....

The farewell was another story, awesome setting and mind shatteringly long, practically exhausted, got screwed like anything in every possible skit that came up, loved it, had tears in my eyes for what all the lot i have done in this place. The highlight was the exit from there just wanted to hug everyone and tell em that i love them and miss them and am sorry for whatever wrong i have done......

All the people i love and my class in the middle one

one more day this is it...

28th June dun know how i have reached there, tommorow morning its going to be my last working day in the university, dont know what is happening, am sitting in the university still havent done a single thing today......

Th depression phase is passing by , the realization is hitting me that this is it!! the time is there, think i am going to miss this life, tonight would be my last day when i wud have to wake up in the morning for a class. LIfe takes you through phases when you know that you have to move on but same time do not want to move on, the comfort zone i am in right now dont wanna leave this place at all..

The past four years been a roller coster ride for me made friends, had fights, the past four weeks have been hell fought with my best friends, was the cause of tears to ma best buddy, want to kill myself for all this, today was another day i am gonna miss like hell made amends, helped acouple of people for a change and had a serious conversation with the two women i love the most..

LIfe is all messed up tommorow i know i am gonna breakdown the class and the farewell this is it, the university life ends here, the future is vague...

Pray for me.....