memories and tears!!!!!!!

Saturday, wrong beginning and probably not the one i would be proud of, the depression mode is still there,

sitting and getting bitten in the eye by a bloddy flying object and then the swelling and the pain holy shit, not anice sendoff from the uni, not at least one i would like to talk abt ever again, the day has had its high and lows, making surehussain shit is frozen solid with the fact that the deadline is two o clock was jst too good :P(i know i am a@#$%#)

Sitting with HR :P for over two hours talking abt complete crap and scheduling the rishwats was just awesome, but shit all of it is over, damn probably we are never gonna sit together, billa, deeba (aka dips aka huma) haroon sahb.

At this point in time billa is all pissed of at us jus a few mistakes, got rolled over by ONE of ma loves,

Am gonna miss a lot of people just this pic the, hot, hotter, hotter 2, hotter 3 and the hottest aun my goodness these people dun know whts gonna happen, motoo would be there but dun know wht else. pata nahi kia ho ga,

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the drive

the drive back from Hot Spot confessions and apologies, the car had the three loves of my life and myself and although tensions were high not because of any rifts but because of

the fact that this was probably our last night out together :(
The songs we hummed to, no this cant be over at all..... Bila, deeba , lali ... am gonna miss u guys a lot thank you for everything , you guys are the best thing in life anyone can wish to have....... (inset: bilal, deeba)

Its over!!!!!!

Finally the most dreaded moment of my life till date has passed by...(someone really close had told me that it would be over and thank god that is isnt the end of life)

The day, the last class, the farewell, the photo sessions, the late night party with all the people i love in this place just awesome...

But right now am sitting here in front of the screen on the brink of tears and for the first time in life am having difficulty to put my emotions in words... Theres the feeling of joy that it is finally over, also the deep inside crunch that shit i am never gonna be able to wake up and go to a class with the same bunch of people ever, the friends i have made here never gonna be able to spend long hours without doing anything and just talking in the university with no worries of life at all.

My comfort zone wants me to leave now and No i dun wanna do tht at all....

The farewell was another story, awesome setting and mind shatteringly long, practically exhausted, got screwed like anything in every possible skit that came up, loved it, had tears in my eyes for what all the lot i have done in this place. The highlight was the exit from there just wanted to hug everyone and tell em that i love them and miss them and am sorry for whatever wrong i have done......

All the people i love and my class in the middle one

one more day this is it...

28th June dun know how i have reached there, tommorow morning its going to be my last working day in the university, dont know what is happening, am sitting in the university still havent done a single thing today......

Th depression phase is passing by , the realization is hitting me that this is it!! the time is there, think i am going to miss this life, tonight would be my last day when i wud have to wake up in the morning for a class. LIfe takes you through phases when you know that you have to move on but same time do not want to move on, the comfort zone i am in right now dont wanna leave this place at all..

The past four years been a roller coster ride for me made friends, had fights, the past four weeks have been hell fought with my best friends, was the cause of tears to ma best buddy, want to kill myself for all this, today was another day i am gonna miss like hell made amends, helped acouple of people for a change and had a serious conversation with the two women i love the most..

LIfe is all messed up tommorow i know i am gonna breakdown the class and the farewell this is it, the university life ends here, the future is vague...

Pray for me.....