Ok before i offend anyone who might think i am referring to him/her its in an order of latest going backwards... Since my class is short and coming to an end, i have just mentioned 3 conversations, there are a few more, which would follow in my next financial class.
1. "Hey how r u doing " "Good, You" "You a new student?" "No i have been here since last year, last semester" "O wow"
This particular conversation, on level 2 of INCEIF in the very initial days, of my stay here, just transformed the Aun that is what i had visioned and planned myself to be... This was the time when i was still in a very searching phase, in my life, had taken a lot of impulsive decisions lately and had ended up in malaysia in pursuit of something, which i know i would probably never have. So this particular person just showed me that there is still hope in this world, and yes sincere people and friends do exist whom you run into when you least expect them.. They would standby you no matter what happens and no matter what you do.. they would be there.
That small random conversation led to more random talks and then some amazing times together, trip to another country, random trips around the place where i live, long serious conversations in defining my future course of action in career, and keeping me sane and my mind off all the pain in life.. One surprising realization for me is that i am not a horny asshole anymore, i can be close and be friends with a girl and not having any feelings for her in that sense ;) (the standard paki horny boy mentality) Well this is only the second friend who is a female, who cant turn me ON ;) surprisingly the the other one is also based like her in the land of Arabs. I know i should probably go and see a urologist or a sex doctor but na i guess because i can never look at a girl with my sexual fantasy eye. Mainly people would say i am GAY now but for those of my friends who know me pretty well you would know why i wouldnt.
2. "What do you wanna do about it" "I dunno, do you think its worth a shot" "yes i think so, What do u say about it " "Well lets see i would like to give it a shot, Lets take every day it comes"
This conversation on roof back in my home country in November of 2007, changed my life totally forever, the every day as it comes made me fall head over heals for a girl, and showed to me what love is all about. The future came in with a lot of exciting new things, first times, heartaches, tears, smiles, meetings spread over three countries, and innumerable cities, trips and vacations together..
What it came out for me is that i am living in a country which is around 7 hours fly time away and pursuing a degree which i used tor refer to as "bullshit" but now have belief in it and plan on living my life in pursuit of this career. What happened to my relationship with this person, well it is still evolving, it has had its highs and lows, it has seen tears, and periods of communication by minute, over 7 seas and seen total communication blackouts.
But saying all that the resultant relationship of the conversation is It gave me a renewed hope to pursue something and a reason to struggle to excel What about future, no idea, Its for Allah to know and for us to find out....
3. "Hey how r u doin " "I m fine, ur from @ Kar right" "Ya i am and u r from @ isb" "yup so whats up whats happening"
This particular conversation, happened thanks to technology of MSN Messenger.. and hmm quite a few years after that i am here writing about it, when i am almost in constant touch with this particular person, who has been the main pillar of saneness over the past few years.. One person whom over the past four years i know i can call up at any given bloody time and know even if the world is coming to an end she is still gonna be there.
Well what came out of this conversation for me, is my best friend, and the realization of the fact that unconditional love exists between two individuals who are not dating or anything. :) (i know too much reference but i was and still a horny young pakistani boy )
So ya summing up the wonderful chronicles about my platonic relationship with this person, well i dunno the Aun that exists today would have been a totally different one, if that particular conversation hadnt taken place. Why we met and became friends, what purpose it serves in the balance of the world no idea but for me its more or less my reason to live :)
So ya finally am running outta time, a few more stories to tell, coming up very soon.
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